I ADMIRED YOU

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I admired you
I looked to you for guidance
I fell for you
Over and over again
And
I thought you loved me too

I have you my body
My heart
My soul
But you threw them away
You took everything away
And left me to rot in my shell

Hearing those words
from your mouth
Hurt more than a
Blade of a dagger
Piercing my heart !!

I hate you for making me love you
I hate you for leaving
And
I hate you for not being there for me

You left me all alone
With no reason why
Or an explanation

For years I have shunned
Every guy I meet
Who comes around my life
No relationships because
I still loved you
The one guy I found to replace you
I didn’t want anymore

I single handedly
Buried my emotions so deep
Not even I can dig myself out
My heart broke
Ripped out in anger and hate

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Rewind On 2013

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So I’ve been very very bad recently
I can safely say I have not wrote a blog for a month
I feel like that this month that is December
Has been a wild wild month
and I could say that I have not had the time
I’d probably be lying but
It’s true
I have been totally flat out with work
And
Trying to get a social life
And to build my personal life

Twitter
YouTube

People that have read my blog in the past will
Have read all about the shady dodgy dates
The one night stands
And the morning after awkwardness

But as the year is closing in
and a new one beings in 4 days
I have decided to try and do a little recap
of the last month and the last year in a short space

I have spent the year reconnecting with old friends
Which has been amazing
Trying to find someone who will take me out on a date
Or even go out on a date with me !!!
There has been some doozies

I started the year caring for my nan
Visiting everyday as she is not well and is slowly loosing her memory
Which is not nice for anyone to experience
It has had its funny moments
And then the not so fun times

I had a 6 month we’ll deserved break from work
And joined the ranks of a franchisee group
Which has been great work and have met a lot of great people
all over the south cost of England

I’m not gonna lie
I’ve been doing a lot of YouTube videos
Not that I’m some big star
I have 14 subscribers
But I do enjoy making them
Some are funny
Some are embarrassing
I recently hit my 1st year of making videos on YouTube
So I put a little karaoke video up as a treat
it’s had like 60 hits so someone has had a laugh over it

Any way reeling it in now
2014
I hope is gonna be a good year
2013
Was ok but could have been better

The pictures I have added are just a few highlights
from nights out with friends and family
I hope you enjoy !!

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The Hammer Of The Gods

This is just a little post
At the arcade last night
I smashed the high score on
The Hammer of The Gods
Machine
Test ur strength
It was quite funny all this working out must be paying off or I’m just
Really strong ?

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Can’t actually tell of the pic is any good it was on my phone !!

The Only Exception

My Life Written In A Song

The Only Exception

When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind.
He broke his own heart
and I watched
As he tried to reassemble it.

And my momma swore
That she would
never let herself forget.
And that was the day that I promised
I’d never sing of love
if it does not exist.

But darling,
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.

Maybe I know somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts.
And we’ve got to find other ways
To make it alone.
Or keep a straight face.
And I’ve always lived like this
Keeping at comfortable distance.
And up until now I’ve sworn to myself
That I’m content with loneliness.

Because none of it was ever worth the risk.

Well you are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.

I’ve got a tight grip on reality,
But I can’t let go
of what’s in front of me here.
I know you’re leaving in the morning
When you wake up.
Leave me with some kind of proof
it’s not a dream.

You are the only exception

And I’m on my way to believing.
Oh, and I’m on my way to believing.

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